After having graduated from college, the most common questions that I am asked are; “What’s next?” and “What are you going to do?” After I was accepted into the San Lucas long-term volunteer program, I was able to give a partial answer to that question: I’m going to volunteer in Guatemala.
“Great… but, what are you going to be doing?”
In response to this question I would either throw together some answer based on the programs that I knew the parish ran, putting emphasis on the ones that seemed most productive: teaching, working on coffee processing, working with reforestation… things that seem valuable and worthwhile to the American mindset. Or, I would simply reply that I would not know until I arrived.
Well, I have arrived, and in previous blog posts I have described the projects that I have made myself a part of, and the kind of work done in each of those projects. However, I haven’t described the actual work that I am doing up until this point because, well, it seemed a little boring or pointless to mention. Maybe even a waste of my time. Maybe even a waste of my “volunteer” experience here in Guatemala. However, over the last couple of weeks I have gone through a series of emotions that have helped me to recognize the true importance of doing work that to many may seem pointless, and to me has become monotonous.
First, I will explain what a typical workday looks like for me. After breakfast at 8, I walk down to the vivero where Efraim and Julio work, and let myself in the door. After greeting both men, I gather my milk crate, shovel, and plastic bags and settle myself down in front of the huge pile of dirt that never seems to get any smaller. For the next three hours, I repeat this process over one hundred times: Scrape some dirt down from the pile, rub it in between my hands to break up clumps of dirt, meticulously pick out every rock bigger than a pea, then shovel the dirt into a little seedling bag. At noon I head out to wash my filthy hands and eat lunch, then return to do the same work until four in the afternoon. If the sea of little seedling bags around my seat gets too big for me to reach to add more, I bring a wheelbarrow over, carefully fill it with bags, then find an empty aisle in the garden to line them up in little rows of five to wait for Efraim to plant something in them.
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| My office in the vivero |
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| Seedling bags that I have filled and Efraim has planted a new little life in |
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So, I do this every single day. After about a week, I was filled with questions: What am I accomplishing here? What good is this for the Guatemalan people? The answers? More complicated than you might expect.
What I am accomplishing may seem trivial. I am slowly filling little bags of dirt that will eventually house little plants. Those plants will move on to bigger bags and eventually, when they are big and strong enough, they will be taken out to be planted at one of the parish projects. I’m not saving the world or educating the poor masses. I am playing a small role in making some parts of town more beautiful. In a town so stricken with poverty, alcoholism, malnutrition, spousal abuse, and homelessness, this feels like a silly job. However, I have come to realize that what I am really doing is what every other poor Guatemalan lucky enough to have a job does every single day, year after year. I am putting my hands in the same earth that produces all of their food, firewood, and sacred plants, and I am working with that earth over and over and over again. It is the same thing that Efraim has been doing everyday for years upon years. It is the same thing that his partner, 65-year-old Julio, will continue to do until he can barely get out of his bed in the morning. I don’t have a right to come into their town and do work that I think is more important or valorous than theirs, to attempt to change their lives and save them in some way. The most that I can ask for is the privilege to be giving this ability to work alongside them, in solidarity with them, and learn from them.
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| Years upon years of work have produced hundreds of rows of plants just like these. |
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| Even with limited resources, Efraim uses the earth around him to cultivate his garden. For example, a sunshade made of sticks and bamboo |
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| Efraim does all of the work in the garden by hand, as exemplified by his handwritten signs. |
I’m learning a lot too. As I sit on my milk crate and dig, often Efraim will sit down and chat with me, playing with the dirt in his hands as he talks. He asks me a lot of questions about where I come from, and shares the traditions of his own life. We talk about everything from the price of a bottle of Coke to holiday customs to social injustices around the world. Efraim shares his life with me openly, and if conversation gets sad or depressing, he always knows how to lighten the mood. He has a simple way of stating the things that are so rarely said back home, things that, while powerful, would be seen as simple or silly if said out loud in English. When I talk about my struggles in learning Spanish, he will respond with “Somos todos humanos, todos comiten errores”. We are all human, we all make mistakes. When talking about social injustice, he smiles and says “En el fondo, somos todos hermanos, somos todos hijos del Señor”. In the end, we are all brothers and sisters; we are all children of God. This is a man I can learn a lot from about living.
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| The simple things: a small harvest of garden fruits |
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| Just a few of the plants that are so sacred to Efraim |
When everything else seems to get me down, when my back hurts and my fingers are scraped from digging up rocks, I also have one more, absolutely magnificent, gorgeous joy that I can get out of my job. I can stop for a minute, get up and walk around the garden and be amazed at the beauty of this place. Often Efraim will see me walking and walk alongside me, teaching me about his flowers and showing his great love for the life that he has cultivated. I wouldn’t have my experience any other way.
Pictures can never tell the whole story, but I hope that these help you to experience in a little way what I experience every single day: